SHE.HER.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

8 feb 2010 .. the ord date. the day he is finally waiting for. he can now concentrate and plan for what he wants.. congrats

for me. sleepless night. day 5.. i know this cant carry on but i couldnt sleep at night. how long is he going to avoid me and how long can i take this too.

unproductive monday! cant concentrate on my work

not been blogging.. i guess with facebook and twitter it is enough.
almost forgot that i kept a blog to vent my anger until that day when we argued he told me that he read..

too many things happened last year. probably that reasons / excuses he gave was vaild but to me it is totally unacceptable. distractions to u, straying u off from your tracks, couldnt handle commitments.. what is all these?

does avoiding me helps.?

sleepless nite eversince that day. 3 weeks.. i had enff. i dont want to feel that way i couldnt control myself.

everybody is telling me to look forward. that is what he says too. i know and i understand im not a kid.. i dont want to give up

Sunday, August 23, 2009

erm sorry guys i din meant to spammed but it seems like i did cos im e victim too
apologies all was just testing out the cross posting between multiply n blogger but i tink i ended up spamming all w the older posts :(

I couldnt see u
what i can do is to watch from u from far
to only want to know that u are fine
when is the day coming
the day when i get to see u again

Thursday, August 20, 2009

hmm it seems tt i have forgotten about here again
sometimes im just looking at the blank post dont know what n where to begin to write

it has been 3 months after the new job
just received my confirmation letter yday, congrats me please :)

it dint seems too good for me the past few months
though i change a new job reason been i want to carry on studying but i cant decide what i want
contradicting right?

ya i thought so too. what exactly do i want to do in e future. what do i really want in life.
all these questions just came popping out of e mind

i think when ure miserable all e negative thoughts will just come and visit u

i just suddenly hate myself
i dont think i thought about the consequences
maybe tt y i ended up so tired of living

is there some place where no pain exists?

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

hmmmm..
waa i tink its been a few mths since i last updated

felt so dead here tt i almost del since im not updating anyway.

feeling so dead n boring that sis actually helped me change a new blogskin
hard to believe im actually once a IT student cos i tink i know nuts bout this blogger thingie .. hahas

Just a quick update maybe:
Ive change job .. no longer working at CBC
hmm its been over a month working @ my new place
felt entirely different
mayb its e job tt is different .. its no longer planning of events n u are holding e upper decision making power
its like u have to be more customer-orientated bla .. bla ..

okie maybe enff of e new job thingie..
erm lemme tink of some other updates ... hmmmmmmm

oh anyway just attended ah jie's wedding @ Fullerton
managed to catch hold of lao da , cheok n jeanne
suddenly i kinda miss e relaxing life @ CBC where u can head dwn to e beach whenever u feel like it .. watch tt beautiful sunset embracing u every evening when u r preparing to go home ..

oh well ..

i tink enff of all those crappy updates ..
i will just take a 5 to 10 mins quick update here when im @ work
cos i know i will be so lazy n head down to bed every night im home

alrite .. have to start work already

Thursday, March 5, 2009

看着阿姨入院，也不知道什么时候会出院心里就觉得很难受。
阿姨是最疼我的人，很希望她很快的好起来。

姨丈天天都去陪她，她就会很开心
让我知道原来幸福是可以很简单的。

很希望自己的幸福也可以那么的简单
不想再和他吵架
我以为我们彼此认识那么久，多少会有那么一点默契吧
可是好像不是，这让我觉真的很难过

已经一天没打给我了，觉得很郁闷。我又不想厚着脸皮打给他然后又被恨恨挂掉电话
愿他不会生气太久吧。

也希望阿姨能早点出院！

Monday, February 23, 2009

Finally all of us met up.
it has been some time cos it is really hard just to plan a day to make sure everyone is free

the usual gang met up .. half of the class in fact .. hahas
for those we dont know, my poly class was just 14 strong
it is so happy to see them again